It's been forever since I've written a post. I've mostly strayed away from writing because I don't have a place to share my blogs anymore since I don't have a facebook account. I figure some people will still get to read it, and if not, I'll at least have it to look back on as my husband reminded me last night.
Speaking of looking back on things, as I was searching for a photo of Quinn from Christmas of last year, I ran across some older photos that I forgot I had even taken. I found the movie I created from the Tharp Thanksgiving last year as well as the mini movie of Quinn that I made last Christmas. I also found my Christmas season photos from 2011. Let's just say I got pretty emotional about what I saw. Justin got (well purchased for a very great price...but that's another story, ha!) his favorite gun of his grandpa's. I had forgotten we took pictures of them together with it. And also some with his grandma before she got put in the nursing home. I also noticed that in 2011 I took my camera everywhere and caught every moment of all of the Christmases that we attended.
I got to thinking while enjoying looking back through all of these.....why don't I do this anymore? I will be the first one to tell you that I love my job, but I also love to have time away from it just as anyone else. Because of what I do, I don't carry my camera anymore. To be honest, when I have it I only get asked one question "will you take a picture of this?". So I stopped taking it and wanted to just enjoy the moment. However, I am now noticing that I missing the beauty of life. Photos are the only thing we will have to look back on and show our children and grandchildren. I know I love looking through old photos. Looking through these in 2011 I saw just how much everyone had changed already. 2011 was the year the doctor told me I should lose some weight as I had gained quite a bit. Seeing these made me proud to see the progress I have made and how happy I am that luckily age so far has been a good thing for me--ha! So, my goal for the holidays this year again is to bring that camera again and capture everything. We never know when the last time will be to capture a person's memory.
I am sure some of you would like an update on how I'm doing lately as my last couple of posts weren't happy ones and I was going through a really rough time. I'm happy to say that I am finally feeling normal again. The medication I was put on was a hard adjustment at first, but once it finally leveled out I am finally feeling like a human again. I have energy again and it's not a struggle to get up in the morning anymore. I can laugh and enjoy my daughter and do things with her again. I can work and not be as overwhelmed or anxious. It's such a great feeling. Thank you to all who have been praying for me and supporting me.
I am going to end with some new photos that many of you may not have seen, as well as some old memories that I found today. Enjoy your day :)
Emily
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